Amway business made my anxiety attacks/disorder worse, how to quit without upsetting my upline? -

About three months ago, I joined the Amway, became an IBO, and it s been stressful ever since. Upline is just after my money. You see I m a graphic designer, a recent college grad with a job that doesn t pay me good enough to move out of my parents house. So I have been looking for a full time job in a tight economy which is stressful alone. I m going back to school part time to better my skills and built a website for my mom, and got paid really well for that. Three months ago, I was suckered into Amway hoping that I would make enough money and be a multi-millionaire and be what every calls quot;freequot; but it didn t happen. My upline kept pressuring me to talk to people that I haven t seen in years and try to get them to sign up as IBOs, spend money on products just to meet the 100 PV each month so I would get a check which is not much in return, and pushed me to talk to family members to get them as customers, and drive everywhere to do QI s, and he kept snapping at me while I was contacting people I know on the phone about the business and criticized me for saying the quot;wrong thingsquot; in the phone calls. Luckily, I have four people on me as customers, but they can t afford or refuse to buy from me since I cannot get excited about the products. They re too f**king expensive!! I m better at communicating my art and design, selling my services. There s my boyfriend who is my first downline. However, I d rather have my boyfriend sign up under someone else instead of me because I suck at the Amway business, he will do better than me, since I m not making hundreds of dollars. I can t seem to get into the LTD motivational CD s, and I hate selling products and pressuring other friends and family into the quot;cultquot;. My boyfriend and I are starting our own business in graphic design and 3D work, we re working on this website of ours and hope to have it completely launched this January. I was always told if you stick with what you re good at, then you will definitely make it big. My upline said graphic design is something I do on the side, not as a career, and that p**sed me off greatly; that crossed the line. I was hurt and angry and told my upline to go f**k himself. I think I could make good money selling my graphic design, building websites instead. I lost about $600 of my hard earned money in the Amway business; from the functions, getting business license, products, driving to meetings, etc. I don t think it s worth it when I got very little money in return; all I made was about $71 from my checks the first two months, so that was a $530 loss for me. I d rather spend very little money on building my graphic design business, thank you very much!!! I think Amway has made my mental health even worse. I wonder if I ve lost my head here, cause I heard if you quit Amway, you re considered a loser? Is that true? What should I do? Sorry for such a long post...|::::|Stop! Easy answer. STOP. Anything that is causing you this much stress is not worth it. Not to mention that you HATE it. ANd it is costing you money to be in it. I say QUIT, and so what if it makes upline mad, he/she doesn t have to live your life, only you do. AND NO it doesn t make you a loser to quit something that gives you this much stress and that costs you money and you hate!