What do I do? I am freaking out!!!!!!!!!!!Living the life? -

I don t know what to do. Ok, I am thinking about what to major in college,should I do dance or fashion design? You see, I don t want to have a clothing line until I am in my mid thirties. Dance, I want to study it because its been my dream to be in plays and then I can find agencies that will lead to my singing/acting/and dancing career. However, I want a well paid more than a minimum wage job to help my living. Anyways, I feel that fashion designing is fun and creative, but, also feels like a stressful, busy, and controlling life. I haven t experienced it, so how would I know? I just seems like it when I watch quot; Kimora: Life in the Fablanequot; on StyleNetwork. Seriously, do fashion designers ever get a break to do what they want in their lives? And dance seems peaceful, creative, and rhymitic, which is what my body gets into. And here s another problem, I am in an abusive relationship with my brother. He doesn t abuse me all the time but occasionally. And I can t explain to you the stress in my house, and I have gone way over my depression where I ve become more negative that I have done things to myself but not big things. I m deciding to leave after high school. I m 16 by the way. And now, I m thinking to stay until I m 20. My new thoughts now are to stay with them until I earn a good salary in fashion design. Then, once I have enough money, I could leave. Like this, I am afraid, I m afraid if I won t earn money and I ll need to twice as hard for it. But there s another thing, if I wait until I am 20 then report it and leave, I am going to regret it and think quot; I wish that I ve done this earlierquot; and regret it. If I report it soon, I will get more support. I am also reading the college of my choice and I think I ve read that one of it s requirements is to study baller and hip-hop would be additional. I really don t like that cause I m not into ballet. Between these two careers, I somtimes feel like I am rusing myself and other times, I feel like asking, quot; Why do I have to wait?quot; I would love to go to dance classes while in college but I feel it would be too expensive. You see, the dance that requires with partners can be learned in a dance class and the dance that requires without one can be learned at home through the internet. There is I dance class I know that I would love to go and it costs $64 weekly, I think. That s $768 a month! You see how important this is to me, I really don t care which career I do first. If you re, reading this and don t think I can manage it, I dont mean to be rude, but I dont wanna hear what you have to say. Please people help, give me valuable life and email me your story if this sort of thing happened to you!|::::|Go for the dance...the dance career will be shorter...you can always get into fashion later....|::::|No one will help you with anything if they see that your commitment is divided with something else.|::::|First off you need to take some math because your addition is atrocious. Then you would have a better chance of making it as a dancer than you would as a fashion designer, which is a very competitive career. Not that dancing isn t but it is so much easier and the playing field is broader. Simply because allot of people can t dance, if you can go for it.